Kiss of RebellionI have been responsible.Kiss of Rebellion by KittySib
I have fulfilled my financial burdens for the month.
I have taken care of my sister,
All that should count for something.
I have suppressed my dramatic and insistent urges.
It's been months since I last cut.
Usually the urge will pass if I sleep on it.
that triggers the urges-
and they don't go away.
I'm sick of being responsible.
Sick of dealing with all my stupid issues.
Can't I just do this one little thing?
This one little thing just for me?
I can use a blade and create art.
I'm just so stressed.
I'm dreading dealing with tomorrow.
Of being walked all over and intimidated.
Sick of feeling trapped and cornered.
I can't stand up for myself.
Not with words,
and not on my own.
My body is mine though.
It belongs to me,
and me alone.
If I choose,
I can stand up for myself,
by allowing myself that forbidden pleasure.
Of the beautiful kiss of a blade.
Not At YouAs I deal with stress and anger,Not At You by KittySib
despair boiling in my veins,
I chose to purge them into words on a page.
No one is to blame.
No one is targeted-
except maybe the universe and any higher powers.
The fear and uncertainty.
When will it end?
When can I be free of such wretchedness?
How does one rip out the darkness that spreads throughout my being,
poisoning everything it touches?
Is there nothing I can do?
I am being eaten alive,
consumed from within.
When there is nothing left,
will I finally have peace?
Or will terror and sorrow reign forever,
with me trapped within?
Bleeding words across this page,
I have to wonder-
will anger and hurt turn into something like hate?
If I can't defuse the darkness within,
will I lose everything I care about?
Circumstances thwart and conspire against me.
I am so tired of the anger eating away at my mind and heart.
Am I asking for too much?
The anger and hate cause horrible headaches,
and have me so twiste
A Simple GiftWhen I see you in my dreams,A Simple Gift by KittySib
your eyes are full of wonders.
The emotions you provoke
are both beautiful and intense.
You have a magical way about you.
Even though we can go for weeks without a word,
you cannot Vanish from my world.
A single phrase in a note
and I become giddy.
I want to see you.
The physical you.
You've shown me a beautiful heart,
a certain charm I cannot resist.
will I ever get to embrace you?
Will you look into my eyes,
and see my yearning for forever?
I know that it's hard to stay in touch,
and that I can't really give you anything...
You are my Valentine,
my dearest one.
I hope that you have a wonderful day,
and that I'll cross your mind.
Maybe next year things will have changed.
Still, until the day we meet face to face,
I hope my words will be enough.
Please don't forget me,
just as I fight every day
to hold onto my memories of you.
No matter how many times I Vanish,
please be the Light waiting for me.
Writing is my passion. I also draw some and crochet. I now have a shop on etsy to sell the blankets I make. |
The shop name is BlanketKitten. Feel free to check it out!
I want to reach out with my writings and inspire others. Even though it is easy to get lost in the darkness, one can almost always find a light-if you look for one. I may be a bit strange and unconventional-I am a Kitty Cat Imperialist. (and yes, I'm serious) Anyways, I like making new friends. I hope you find what you are looking for and have a great day!
All shall be accomplished while serving the Kitties, who rule this world, though it is not widely known.