|My beloved kitty, Misty|
Inner PathsSifting through vague remnants of memories,Inner Paths by KittySib
I uncover a veritable labyrinth within.
The sound of weeping and unhinged laughter
Sends shivers down my spine.
This place holds all my past selves,
Controlling memories that could destroy me.
The farther and deeper I go,
The more convinced I am that this
Is not where I want to be.
I try to block out the sounds of despair-
And that is when I notice the whispers.
“Come on. This way.” they beckon.
I follow without question.
Deep within and on a different path
From the halls I walked
Was a beautiful oasis.
An ever evening sky,
Glittering with stars and moonlight.
Blue roses climbing the walls of a small house.
Everything about this place,
Even the lake with a gazebo island-
All of it screams HOME.
Drifting through the soft grass
I feel I could stay here forever.
I would too-
Except a wispy thread tugs me back
Reminding me to take my rightful place
That Someone is waiting for me.
Regretfully I turn away from
This place of music and mo
Depression is KillerIt hits suddenly.Depression is Killer by KittySib
A debilitating headache the urge to cry.
Longingly I think of the knives,
Of the pills.
All the things I can’t have or do.
The fact that I would die if I could.
There’s so much hopelessness and clawing agony.
It takes over, painting everything a dreary red.
Taunting me to do things that would only make it worse.
I want out.
PainfulInvasive,Painful by KittySib
Insidious tendrils of sadness and despair
Seep into my heart and mind.
The question echoes dully,
Answered with hideous laughter.
The real question should be
Am I so significant that I
Merit special attention?
The hopeless fool?
Just because I feel,
Just because it hurts,
Is nothing to deserve special treatment.
Am I so arrogant?
So foolish as to believe?
Maybe there is no point to anything.
Maybe life will always be one pain upon another,
With no hope of release.
I want out.
How does one escape this?
I can’t die,
But maybe I can hide?
Bury myself in distractions so deeply
I never surface to reality again?
Let Me DIsappearNo! Go away. I don’t need this empty void clawing at my insides. I want it to stop. Just make everything stop. No! I don’t want to know. Your lies mean nothing. Close the blinds. Turn off all the lights. Let me hide in the comfort of my dark room, keeping reality at bay. There is no need for this. Stop! I’ll burn if they see. If you see. Go. Go now! Nobody can see this. If they did, I’d be ruined. Let me go. Let me disappear. The one who comes after will have answers I cannot give. Why are you still here? Leave!Let Me DIsappear by KittySib