I chose to stay.
There's a whole lot more to it than it sounds.
Pages and pages of tear streaked battle.
sometime simple gets it across better.
I am here.
Here I will stay.
Soul Mate Quest Journal 13th EntryAugust 13Soul Mate Quest Journal 13th Entry by KittySib
Ow. My head is killing me, and I feel drained. I guess it's the after effects of all that magic I used the on Owen. He's currently in his snow leopard form. His eyes are still silver, but at least they have pupils again. It won't be much longer that he will stay here. I can feel his restlessness.
When I placed my left hand over Owen's eyes two days ago, I poured every once of my hope, healing, and power into him. Perhaps I over did it. I feel like I poured a lot of myself into him. The man who hates me. Who tried to kill me, and murders without care. I wonder what it's done to him.
Six days til I can go home. Six long, everlasting days. I need to get out of this cave. I need to stretch my wings and fly. Food would also be a good idea. Maybe when I leave the cave I won't go back there. Maybe I can stay with Whisper Song. It's improbable that Owen would follow after me, and even if the stars of fate draw us together I won't stay with him. I'm too scared. Scared of him, and any
Who ARE the Voices?If I could see beyond the stars,Who ARE the Voices? by KittySib
what would I see in your eyes?
Could I see the truth behind your lies?
If I could see within,
would you still get under my skin?
If somehow I could believe all your pretty words,
I'd be a fool or naive.
Trust is something earned.
All it takes is time.
Who are you?
Can I believe a word you say,
with all the harm you've caused?
The way you confuse my thoughts
and take advantage of my emotions...
you alternate between reason and despair.
I know what you want.
I know what you seek.
I cannot give you control.
Why do you lurk inside my mind?
Who ARE you?
Dissociative Amnesia In ProgressI can feel the disorientation.Dissociative Amnesia In Progress by KittySib
My dissociative amnesia seems to begun kicking in.
Constant anxiety and attacks of sorrow overwhelm.
Desperately I try to escape.
I hear the screams,
and fight to flee.
Every step leads towards the darkness,
and I feel so lost.
Numbness and emptiness are a great reprieve.
I am unsure of many things,
and very angry at myself.
I should have been stronger.
I should have been able to fight longer.
Now it's up to me-the current Self.
Have to try and fix what she broke,
and get the lay of the land.
Even as I press forward,
I feel the agonizing and sickening attacks of sorrow and depression.
If I'm not careful,
I too shall vanish.
Why is everything so chaotic?
What happened to cause such intense?
Numbness is already wearing off,
and the pain is staggering.
How many times must I vanish before I are able to function?
The pain is a physical beast,
trying to destroy me.
How can I fight such powerful emotions?
More dissociative amnesia is on it's way.
I just hope it'
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