literature

Hopeless Mistake

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I don’t want to go to sleep.
Tomorrow will come,
Whether I want it to or not.
There’s nothing wrong with tomorrow.
It’s just that…
Tomorrow will be just as lonely as today.
If I pretend that tonight will last forever,
That by keeping sleep at bay,
I can alter the passage of time…
I would never sleep again.
I feel worthless and hopeless,
Like I need to find a way to justify my existence.
I believe my existence was a mistake,
A mistake I’ve tried to rectify numerous times.
Against all reason,
I continue to exist.
That leaves me trying to find a way
To make up for breathing.
People say I’m nice,
But how can that justify anything?
I keep telling myself I have a soul mate,
That there must be some kind of purpose for my life.
I just get so lost and lonely.
How long must I wait?
How can I continue to hope
When I’m a walking disaster?
Here I am;
Existing against all reason.
Existing purposelessly.
A mistake.
I wish I knew why.
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ChasMandala's avatar
What an emotional and beautiful piece this is... straight from the heart. I can relate to what you've said here...my days seem to pass by in a very similar way. All I can say is that since activating my account on dA I've found so many wonderful people like yourself who feel the same way I do - that's reassuring. And I hope your move turns out OK for you. All the best to you. :hug: