So Tired

Another day alone
fighting to keep it together.
Heedless of everything
tears continue to fall.
Through it all come the thought
It's ok.
It doesn't matter.
Just slip away quietly.
I can't remember why I'm here.
I can't fight the tears alone.
I can't control the pain.
I want so badly to matter,
but I don't.
Breathing is difficult.
I keep choking on tears.
What was the point of staying again?
Trembling,
I can't help thinking I wish I was gone.
That everything would just be over.
No more stress.
No more responsibility.
No more pain.
I don't care anymore.
Sorry.