Soul Mate Quest Journal 13th Entry

August 13

Ow. My head is killing me, and I feel drained. I guess it's the after effects of all that magic I used the on Owen. He's currently in his snow leopard form. His eyes are still silver, but at least they have pupils again. It won't be much longer that he will stay here. I can feel his restlessness.

When I placed my left hand over Owen's eyes two days ago, I poured every once of my hope, healing, and power into him. Perhaps I over did it. I feel like I poured a lot of myself into him. The man who hates me. Who tried to kill me, and murders without care. I wonder what it's done to him.

Six days til I can go home. Six long, everlasting days. I need to get out of this cave. I need to stretch my wings and fly. Food would also be a good idea. Maybe when I leave the cave I won't go back there. Maybe I can stay with Whisper Song. It's improbable that Owen would follow after me, and even if the stars of fate draw us together I won't stay with him. I'm too scared. Scared of him, and any damage I may have caused. If Owen Snow-Clover is the sole reason I came to this world (it was) then I am responsible for him. For his actions-and my own.

Owen is following me.......... I can't escape my responsibility to him. Maybe I should.... talk to him? His brain is probably fried by magic, but I still need to know what is going on with him. Why he was screaming until his voice disappeared? Why did he follow me? Is he still and insane mass murderer? So much blood shed and dark magic before I came to this world. So much after I came here. Nothing makes sense to me.

Stolen Light, brother, what should I do? How can I stay here? What will happen if I go home looking as I do now? I fear being judged a monster. Of being destroyed by my people. For the first time, I cannot stand the thought of meekly being destroyed on my birthday. I want to live. I want to be free. I promised to come home by August 19th. What if I become trapped here or there? Chained to a fate I did not choose?

I swear, I will put things right. I will help Owen however I can, and see my brother at least one last time. Guess it's time to face the music....