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Stay away from me.
I have nothing to offer.
You waited too long to find me.
I’ve decided not to believe in you.
All you do is break my heart-
So I’ve decided you don’t exist.
I know I’m a shattered mess,
But if you’d found me before…
But you didn’t.
You Haven’t,
And you won’t.
Do you have any idea how hard it’s been?
I need you.
I can’t help it.
But you aren’t there.
You’ll never be there.
I don’t have to worry about my scars anymore.
I can add to them all I want.
It’s not like you’d notice,
Or care.
It was foolish and naive of me to think you would.
I know I don’t deserve you,
And I never will.
Why bother trying anymore?
Soul mate of mine,
Why?
Did you abandon me?
Or have you given up too?
I don’t know what else to do.
I reach out with my writing,
But can’t find you.
I’m afraid to spend my future alone,
But I don’t see any way around it.
Day by day my depression grows,
And thinking about you just makes it worse.
I don’t know you.
I’ve never met you.
I can’t trust my heart.
Can’t believe you will be able to understand me.
After all this time,
And all the heartache…
I give up.
Sorry.
So if you’re still looking for me,
If you still want me…
Find me.
I’ll be around.
Just don’t expect me to fall into your arms.
You’ll have to convince me,
Because I no longer believe.
I still hope,
But I’m trying not to.
I am having a hard time. I keep thinking My Soul Mate must be dead or I don't have one. I makes it more difficult to resist certain urges. I promise I haven't done anything stupid, but I am VERY frustrated with myself and my situation. I can't help but feel inadequate and uncertain. I keep trying, but all I end up feeling is foolish for hoping. 
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ChasMandala Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes...I'm still looking for mine... :hug:
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KittySib Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug:
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HopeaDreki Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014
He is out there, it just might take some more time to find him. :hug;:
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KittySib Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug:
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HopeaDreki Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014
:hug:
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WheresAJacket Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
well done
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KittySib Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks
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WheresAJacket Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
your welcome
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Timberheart Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014
</3 you sound like youre in a similar place as me. It gets better, though it never does fully, i hope you feel better
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KittySib Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks
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Timberheart Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014
np
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Mizu1993 Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Professional General Artist
Well written, but I also have a hard time and sometimes it is good when you don't find your Soul mate. Also there is not just one, there are more Soul mates out there, even for you. Unforunately also they will break you sometimes, then you go depressed again :/
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KittySib Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks
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